I need a new brain, I’ve obviously burnt my current one out.

I was looking at some old posts from the past two or three reboots, and I never seem to make these deadlines do I? The eggrolls made their way in a day or so late, and the first Aries Project was late as well. I guess you can’t really set deadlines on sites like these. It’s definitely a lesson learned.

So here I am, stumbling in late to the party wearing a wardrobe I’d rather not be seen in public with. It’s a bit old, a bit used with a few loose seams. Grab me a beer, because I’m going to need it. To tell you the truth, everything was different about this process. First came the application, then the quest to actually see the data on a live site, then the design. The design came last, and I think that’s a large reason of why I think it sucks a bit. It’s very forced, and I don’t know if you can feel it or not stepping around here—but that header is definitely forced. It’s actually reminiscent of versions 19 & 20 (the fruit basket and eggroll versions). The entire site’s also light, which is something I haven’t done in over a year. Everything felt weird, but again, it was part of the whole learning process for me.

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Although this site holds the moniker of version 25, I don’t think it deserves it. I’m going build out this site and polish it until I feel happy with it. At this point, I’m going to be content with the site being back up with a mind full of things to write about. I’ve worked so hard on the back-end that it deserves an awesome front-end.

I’ve realized I’ve said it numerous times before, but I ask you once again to bear with me. There is no fanfare following this release, as there shouldn’t be. It’s just a quiet return to normalcy as I await my creativity to do the same.

EDIT: There was a paragraph that talked about how I caved into expectations. But, I’d be deluding myself if I thought that it was because of other people that Avalonstar came out rushed. It was because of me. Jina Bolton and Patrick Haney for instance, told me to wait and take my time. I tried to work on other things. As much as I wanted to wait and take my time, my mind wouldn’t have it. My body wouldn’t let me. My eyes wanted to keep looking at inspiration for potential layouts. On a related note, I missed TV shows I never miss—LOST, Heroes, Mythbusters, etc—because of this. Not because I didn’t want to, I just couldn’t. I couldn’t go on with my life until this place was up. If I had waited, I probably would have lost my mind. I refused to touch any client work until I had Avalonstar up. To a point, it’s pretty pathetic. But I hope that serves as some proof of what this place means to me.